His greatest interest was life itself.
He spent years in search for the answer to the
eternal question that disturbed all who searched for truth, the
question "Who am I"....
Religions, philosophies, ways of living, schools
of thought, missions, scriptures, gurus, teachers, rituals....
All of a sudden...it happened. And when it happened
it was so simple and clear. The essence of truth that engulfed the
whole existence, the cosmic reality...the whole world became peaceful
and clear. It was the end of his search. There was nothing left...everything
became clear and empty like the vast blue sky...the self, the selfless
being... you, me, they, we, us ours, I, he, it , this, that, them,
theirs, his, yours, mine all merged to become a vast crystal clear
"Thus, even in our day the unity of consciousness
is still a doubtful affair; it can too easily be disrupted. An ability
to control one's emotions that may be very desirable from one point
of view would be a questionable accomplishment from another, for
it would deprive social intercourse of variety, color and warmth."
- Carl Jung
A decision was made to enter into the realm of the unreal, to experience
the variety, color and warmth of social intercourse.
And thus he set out to experience life...as he
jokingly said, to dive into and swim around in the mortal mud-pool called
His first introduction to music was from the great violinist Henry Abia
of Calicut. Mr. Henry lived in the memories of the British Empire where
he held a powerful post of a "Registrar". People respectfully
used to call him "registrar" long after the British left the
country. He was a great admirer of Lord Louis Mountbatten. His living
room walls were adorned with photographs of "Prince of Wales",
"Queen Victoria", "Queen Elizabeth" etc, the remnants
of a past glory.
Henry Abia introduced him to western musical notations and the violin.
He spent his childhood days with Mr. Henry learning a lot other than music.
Mr. Henry had a rich collection of books and periodicals. Mr. Henry was
an ardent crossword solver and used to solve crosswords that appeared
in the english dailies. He used to watch all these activities of Mr. Henry
curiously and learned a lot of things about a different lifestyle that
was alien to him.
After Mr. Henry passed away, he got interested in Indian Music. Mr. Henry
always used to praise the English saying that they took just one raga
from Indian Music, the Shankaraabharanam and developed it to
such and extent to form the entire Western Music. It was then that he
learned that Indian Music was much deep and vast than Western Music. He
decided that he should learn Indian Music.
His father took him to Sashikant who was an expert flautist. Sashikant
taught him the basics of Hindustani Music and he learned the first lessons
in playing flute.
Later, he was introduced to Masterjee Sharatchandra Marathe known as the
Bhishmacharya of Hindustani Music in South India. From Masterjee
he started learning Hindustani.
Meanwhile, he moved on to Palakkad, a place renowned for Karnatic Music
and musicians. Here he found another guru in Shree Muralikrishnan, from
whom he started learning Karnatic Music.
Years passed by and Shree Muralikrishnan moved on to Chennai and he completed
his B.Tech to come back to Calicut again.
Lighter Side of Life
Was an Ilaiyaraja fan while in College. Enjoys popular melodies, any language...
Has a vast collection of Yesudas songs. Considers Yesudas as a phenomenon
of his era.
Gazals of Jagjit Singh...the reason he had a passion for them was a personal
mystery he never revealed to anyone!
He used to read Leon Uris early in his life and studied the Jewish History
closely...Steinbeck, Milan Kundera, S.K. Pottekkat, O.V. Vijayan...Jung,
Freud, Fromm, Beauvoir
Later his reading shifted to politics and philosophy. The reductionist
approach to philosophy of the west did not hold his interest for long
and he started delving deeper into the Indian Philosophy...
Being a rebel basically and at that age of his life when everybody is
a rebel, he could not accept any school of thought as perfect or absolute
and rolled on to more and more viewpoints and gurus...
Vivekananda, Aurobindo, Nitya Chaithanya Yati, Sree Narayana Guru, Rajneesh,
Enjoys movies of all sorts...
A few favourites:
Pushpaka Vimanam, Forrest Gump, Bharatham, Thoovaanathumbikal, When Harry
Met Sally, Milk Money, A Fish Called Wanda, The French Kiss, Notting Hill,
The American Pie, The Last Temptation of Christ, The Bachelor, Coming
to America, The Braveheart, Tin Cup...